Weekend Recap

I meant to write a post yesterday, but I haven't had the greatest weekend.  It seems all to common for me to get sick on a Friday night, which means my weekend is spent laying around feeling yucky.  I felt fine during work Friday, but that night I came down with a terrible headache.  That turned into a sore throat Saturday and I'm still trying to get over this mess.  I'm thinking it's just sinuses and that it will clear up soon.  I don't like being sick because there is a million things that needs to be done around the house and unfortunately not much was done.  Humph..... there is always next weekend!

I do have something on my mind and it all stems from this picture:

I remember the picture on the left being taken.  We were at my sister and brother-in-laws church for a surprise anniversary party (I believe!).  It seems like yesterday.  It's hard to believe that I look like the person in the right photo from July.  Have you ever had to do a double-take to see if the person you are really seeing is you?

All I'm used to is the person who is in the left picture.  All of my life I lived, felt, and looked like I did in that picture.  I never knew what it felt like to be healthy.  I didn't know what it felt like to feel like I had all of the energy in the world.  All I knew was how it felt.  At that time, I felt okay.  I felt like I was good enough.  I saw people who weighed more than me and thought I was "skinny" compared to them.  I almost felt like I was giving in to that way of life because I thought that was who I would always be.  

I would always stare at the fit and skinny girls and wonder what I would look like if I had their body.  I wondered how hard it was for them to be that way, or if it came easy.  Some people don't have to workout or worry about what they are eating.  For me, I needed that.  I needed to workout and eat healthy, but yet I wasn't really doing either.  I knew that, but I figured "What is the point?"  I didn't know that I could ever look like I do now, like in the picture from July 2013.

I am so thankful for my Beachbody family.  I am thankful for my coach, Liz Horne.  I am so thankful that she was there when I was about to hit rock bottom as far as my attitude and happiness with my own body was concerned.  I learned how to workout.  I pretty much have my own personal trainer with my DVDs that I get to do AT HOME on my OWN TIME!  It has been a lifesaver for me.  I learned what good foods are and the importance of having them versus the bad stuff.  To be honest, I still have A LOT of days where I eat things that I know I shouldn't.  I do limit myself to those foods and I am getting better everyday.  Baby steps are good steps.  

I still have moments when I look in the mirror and think that I am SO fat and that I need to lose weight.  It's tough because I think about how I used to be and I had those feelings back then as well.  It's amazing how you perceive yourself.  It's true when they say you are your own worst critic.  But, I have to remind myself of how far I've come.  I am a work in progress and I'm okay with that.  My story is nowhere near finished.  I am thankful for y'all for going with me through my journey.  It would be possible without you, but it sure is better having a few people cheering me on!  

I hope you all had a great weekend and I hope you have a great week! XO,